I’m not feeling strong at the moment. At the moment I’m terrified that I’ll get halfway through the race on Saturday, then fall down and cry like a little kid about how I’m too tired and I just can’t do it. I know this is just my brain chemicals getting out of balance. It’s just nerves. My disorder is triggered by stress and an upcoming 13 mile footrace is some big juju stress. I keep trying to ignore the negative emotions. But there is that little tiny voice that says what if I’m right to be afraid? How do you ignore that? Why isn’t there a magic rock or amulet or something that will keep this stuff from creeping into my brain when big, important things are about to happen? I could really use some loud, encouraging voices to shout down that little scaredy-cat voice, if y’all have a minute to leave a comment. I don’t really expect anyone to come hang out at the race for 2-3 hours (though it’s at a park and Saturday is supposed to be warm and nice), but if you could cheer for me right here, right now, in the comments, that would be really cool.
“Your life is your garden,
Your thoughts are the seeds.
If your life isn’t awesome,
You’ve been watering the weeds.”